Success! Ish?

I was 176.4 today, so that's an improvement. Better then the 179.2 I was after my binge on Monday afternoon.

My period is really kicking my ass right now. The plus side? My stomach hurts too much to eat much. I'm in actual pain right now because I wanted to kick-start my metabolism for the day. Up to 330 calories so far. Not exactly what I was going for, but hopefully this will fully wake up my metabolism and kick it into overdrive.

If not, I'm going to keep worse about this amount then I already do. It's getting harder and harder to make myself eat. I spent my entire lunch break at work yesterday TRYING to figure out something to eat that I wouldn't feel bad about. I spent a solid 30 minutes just pacing the isles. It really shouldn't take that long to try and figure out something to consume.

Right now I'm just trying to force myself to eat something ever four hours. All I want to do is starve and fasting and b/p, but I need to think pragmatically. I want to do these things, but have I actually SEEN any results from them? 

No.

So maybe I need to try to re-work my thinking. I never thought it would be this difficult though. So now I'm eating every four hours. It doesn't mean I have to eat a lot, just that I have to eat SOMETHING. An apple. A piece of celery. Something. So what I'm trying to do is eat my biggest calorie food(s) in the morning, and the just a little something every four hours the rest of the day.

We'll see if it works. 

I'm feeling oddly optimistic.   :)