My boyfriend is sleeping in my bed right now. I couched him for two nights, but I said he could 'take a nap' in my room, meaning he's pretty much going to be there all night. But he's working at 11am and I'm working at 4pm, so I can always just take a nap alone. It's really not a big deal I guess. I let him do this, but I'm still annoyed. I don't want him here, but he was whining and I just wanted him to shut up.

Wow, this isn't a healthy way to be dealing with someone I claim to love. I do love him. I'm not necessarily 'in love' with him, but I don't hate the guy. I just understand that he's not my soul mate. But I'm lonely. And he's really sweet.

I have a very bad habit of picking up strays, according to my mother.

I want Apollo BAD though. I think about him so much. I really just want to go to sleep so I can dream about him now. With my boyfriend laying next to me. Jeez, I'm an awful human being....

I was 172.8 today though! :) I was insanely surprised. Happy, but surprised. If I could be to my first goal weight (169) by Tuesday morning, I'd be... ecstatic, plain and simple. I had a 160cal bowl of oatmeal today, a 180cal Fuze drink, and a small order of fries. SHITTY DAY FOR FOOD! But I haven't eating since 5:30pm, and it's 11:30pm right now, and I'm about to go to bed. I'm exhausted. I've been running around all day at work and then at Walmart. I've been moving all day.

I need to start seriously considering what to do about Apollo......