Fat Ass

I feel like such a fucking fat ass right now.

I'm fasting until further notice. Then when I fuck up, I'll just start fasting again.

I'm sick of all this disgusting weight hanging off of me.

I got to my first goal weight and fucked up and gained 5lbs. Now 174.4lbs.

My fast started at midnight, so I'm just over 12 hours in.

This is fucking ridiculous. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed. I just want to crawl into my room and die.

I'll be on campus for at least another 5 hours, but I might stay longer. Work tomorrow 9-5, work Saturday 10-6:30.

I'm sick of school, my job, and most importantly, my FAT. I hate this shit.

I'm disgusting.